i'm hostile.

i need to vent for a minute.

i am so sick of people that are stupid and think they should get what they want, when they want it. even if this means the expense of others. seriously, the world doesn't revolve around you. deal with it.

i am so sick of calling some customer service number and getting someone that doesn't speak english. i just talked to someone who first of all didn't even listen to while i was calling, she just assumed and she was wrong. so the first 5 minutes of the phone call weren't even necessary. second, she didn't speak english worth a dime so i couldn't hardly even understand her and she didn't understand why i was calling. don't you think it would be beneficial to hire people that speak english when we are in america?

the end.

Missionary Training Center

...otherwise known as the MTC. I decided the MTC is one of my least favorite places to go. Ever. End of story.

Don't get me wrong, the spirit there is amazing and the feeling you get when everyone sings "Call to Serve" is incredible but overall it's just not my favorite place. I hate saying goodbye and I don't do well with change. For someone who is the slightest bit emotional..no bueno.

I told Daren that I was going to forbid all of our children to go on missions because I just can't handle it...

I remember a lady in our old ward telling my mom when her son left on his mission, it was like someone in the family died. My first thought was, "Holy freaking drama queen." Seriously, could it be that bad? I remember when Jace left it really did feel like he had died. I also had that same feeling yesterday dropping Tom off. But then I gathered my thoughts...and eventually my emotions and realized that it's only 2 years. Jace's 2 years have gone by so fast. I hope Tom's 2 years go by fast too. I'm so proud of both my brother and my brother-in-law. Serving the Lord for 2 years is a big decision and I'm so proud of them for choosing to do so. I know that they will be blessed for it.

I hate saying goodbye.

Thoughts for Friday

I've had a few thoughts today and I would like to share them.

First. A few months ago...well I guess it's been a year now. A year ago I was looking to get a new phone, as I do every year at this time. As I walked into the local T-Mobile store in Logan I saw the most beautiful phone of all. A pink razor with flowers on it. It was so cute I just had to have it. Before I officially purchased it I had several people tell me not to get it. Reasons ranging from the text messaging is really slow to the whole phone sucks to its not durable and you'll probably break it within the first week. Those who know me also know that I am very hard on my phones, not intentionally, it just happens. That is the most common reason I get a new phone every year, because I break them.

I am proud to report that one year later my cute pink razor phone is still working and in one piece. The outside is a little sad but all screens are clear from cracks or scratches. The reason I had this thought today was because this morning as I was leaving to go to work I dropped my phone getting into my car. It fell onto cement. The back of my phone went flying off. I thought to myself, "Oh dear, today is the end of the life of my phone." I went to pick it up, preparing for the worst, of course. I picked up the pieces and put it back together and sure enough, GOOD AS NEW! Now this hasn't been the first time I have dropped it. Today was just another confirmation that my phone is great and I still love it. One may ask, "But it's been a year, will she get a new one anyways?" The answer is no, not yet. I won't be getting a new one for a few more months when I switch over to Daren's plan.

My next thought. The past few days my roommates have come more and said the words that every student longs to say, "I'm done with finals!" They are so happy and I can sense a sign of relief when they say it. Today I got thinking, I miss saying that. It was such a natural high to know you were officially done with school for a few weeks or even a few months. Is it sad that I'm slightly jealous they had to take finals and and then have that amazing feeling of being done? Then I thought, maybe I should go back to school. But then I thought a little bit more and asked myself, "Is it really worth it?" The answer still remains unknown. I do know, however, that I've lost that lovin' feeling.

traumatized

Here I am sitting at work listening to one of our new kids crying his eye balls out. It's his first day and I'm pretty sure he has been crying for about 20 minutes. I realized that if I was his mom, I think I would be very traumatized. The day I drop my first child off at preschool or kindergarten will be a very difficult day for me...especially if my kid cries as hard as this new one is. Poor child. Poor mom.

Hail the Utah Aggies!

Over the past few months I've come to realize the difference between being an alumni vs a student. You wouldn't think it would be that big of difference since I just graduated in May but it's like a completely different world when you are an alumni. This semester I have been to a football game, a hockey game, and a basketball game. At all three games my world has been turned upside down it seems like. Everything is different. It is so weird to not sit in the student section. Seriously, it is like a whole new game when you are sitting in the student sections. I tried yelling and singing all the songs like I was still a student but everyone just looked at me. I wouldn't even call those people fans. How can you go to a basketball game and not sing the fight song?! Even the teams are full of new players. My roommates and I used to be hockey addicts! We used to know every player and even hang out with them but now I don't know anyone on the team! Well except for Scotty John. Colt Pride!

BUT!

There are some things that will never change. For example, the football team will always lose. No matter what seat you are sitting in. I will always get chills when I hear the national anthem being sung at a hockey game, sometimes those chills aren't always good. Our fans will always and forever torment every team that comes to the Spectrum to play a game of good old fashion basketball. And! There is no way to describe the feeling you have when see and hear fellow Aggie's singing the Scotsman. Seeing a crowd of swaying hands is indescribable, it almost brings tears to my eyes.

Go Aggie's!

automated systems

you know what irritates me the most? when i have to call a bank or any type of business that has an automated system. i have seriously been on the phone for ten minutes and my question still hasn't been answered. i just want to talk to a real person! is that too much to ask? i guess so. boo.

today was a good day.

I have such excellent news.

First, Jace, my brother, is coming home on May 1st from the mission. He's in Guatemala. I can't wait! I do miss him intensely.

Also! I'M ENGAGED! It is true. It finally happened and I must saw it was so magical. Basically he proposed to me underneath the moonlight, by a lake, with fireworks going off above us. Yes that is right. Real fireworks. Fireworks in November is so ideal. It was so perfect. Of course I said yes! I love my ring. We are getting married June 5th. I am seriously so happy right now!!! Love is such a great feeling!

i'm dead?

This morning I was awoken to 8 missed calls and a few text messages. Why you may be asking? Apparently people thought I was dead. I guess there was a girl with my same name that died in Box Elder county last night. Rest assure it wasn't me.

I guess my mom even called Daren at work to make sure I was okay because she couldn't get a hold of me.

I didn't die. No worries.

Black Friday.

I did it. Yes I went out to the stores this morning and I'll tell you what it was an experience to treasure. People are crazy. It was awesome. I think I got 3 hours of sleep last night and I am wired. I'm on energy drinks and adrenaline. I was very successful and the day is just beginning. Cheers.

This is post shopping and I just realized how crazy I look. Oh my. And yes that is the rebel flag in the background. I'm in Daren's room. :)

Happy Turkey Day!!

I hope everyone had a good holiday today! I feel like I have so much to share so I will begin now.

The morning started off a little rough. The past few days there has been some tension between Daren and I. Neither one of us were sure why but its been weird and carried on over to this morning. Then my mom called to say happy thanksgiving. As I was talking to her she started crying because she missed me and I wasn't going to be home for thanksgiving. I felt really bad. A few weeks ago she made a comment about having a thanksgiving dinner the weekend before with my family so Daren and I didn't have to go to Salt Lake on thanksgiving. By her saying this, I assumed she would be okay. I guess not. I felt bad and I started crying. I told her to put a skirt on Shane and stick a bow in his hair and it would be like I was there. Needless to say, I was not looking forward to the rest of the day.

I watched the parade today. I do love parades. I made cinnamon rolls for my roommate and I this morning. They were quite enjoyable. So. I have a bone to pick with society. The last two weeks at work we have been working on Thanksgiving vocabulary words with the kids. When we first started the unit we had words such as turkey, potatoes, indians, corn, etc...well not long after we started we had to remove "indians" and "pilgrims" from our vocabulary because they weren't politically correct, which I thought was really lame. But today in the parade they had an entire float of pilgrims, fully dressed and everything. Why can we show pilgrims on a national shown parade but we can't teach 3 and 4 year olds the word? Stupid.

Anywho. Daren came over around noon. We talked. It was basically lack of communication between us, which is weird because that rarely happens. We've both been in blah moods and that hasn't helped either. Everything is good. We still love each other and all that good stuff. I got ready for the day while we watched the Best of Show for Dogs, or whatever it is called. Surprisingly both of us were very entertained. There are so ugly dogs in this world.

After the dog show we grabbed our food and took off for Daren's grandma's house. We ate lots of delicious food and visited. It was a good time. After dinner and chatting we headed over to James', Daren's brother, work. He works at S&S Power, they make amusement park rides. Him and his wife wanted to take all the little kids on this new ride. It's called the Frog Hopper. It's basically a little kid version of The Rocket at Lagoon. It was so entertaining. I went on it several times.

The last time we were out at S&S we made a swing out of some rope things, a 2x4, and a crane, and it was a good time. So naturally we made it again. Daren ran the swing while James ran the Frog Hopper. We were out there for several hours, maybe like 2. It was really fun.

After we left S&S, Daren and I stopped by a local Redbox and got a movie. Daren let me get Hairspray, which I LOVED! The music is so good! I was dancing and singing the whole way through the movie.

I love going on field trips so when Daren took me home, he drove by all the big stores to see how long the lines were to get in. It was rather amusing. Best Buy had the longest line.

Needless to say, the day turned out amazing! I don't think I have ever had a Thanksgiving like that. It was actually mine and Daren's first Thanksgiving together. Last year was....special but this year was so good! The end.

Great Success!!

This weekend there was great success and I'll tell you why!

I got my hair, which hasn't been done since July. Sick, I know, but true. My hair is dark. Well, not really dark. I haven't been this dark since probably high school. It's weird to go from platinum blond to dark. It's actually my natural color. I take that back. My natural color is "mouse" according to my great hair stylist, Marci, which means I have grey hair. My color now is not grey. I really like it. And I trimmed it. I want to grow it out and donate it. An episode of Oprah inspired me.

Also, I went the whole weekend without my dad noticing the large scratches on the side of my car from my garage. Yes, once again I drove my car into the side of my garage. I'm special. But I do blame the people that live across from me. They park their cars in the most inconvenient places and I have a hard time making a wide enough turn into my garage. They have a garage too! Why don't they use it?!

The biggest success this weekend was Daren asking my dad permission to marry me. Heaven help us all, right? I am very happy to report that things went very, very well!! Woot! Any day I could have a large diamond on my finger! I can't wait! It seems like everyone knows when and how it's going to happen, except for me!!! Daren likes to rub it in my face too. He says he is teaching me patience. Boo! I told him I was a patient person unless it was regarding something I wanted.

It was a very good weekend. I got to spend time with my family and my friends. Shane was ordained a priest too. Can you believe he is 16? Holy freak. Plus my mom made Thanksgiving dinner for Daren and I since we won't be in Salt Lake for the actual holiday. It was delicious. My mom is seriously one of the best cooks...if only I had her same talent...Luckily Daren cooks. If he didn't, we would probably starve to death.

P.S. I just re-read this and I seriously had a billion spelling and grammatical errors...and it probably still does. Maybe I should go back to school.

Gratification

The other night I was watching Kimora: Life in the Fast Lane. It was late and I couldn't sleep. In this episode Kimora decided she wanted a new house...in 3 days. She literally gave her realtor 3 days to find her a new house. I felt so bad for the guy. How do you find someone like Kimora Lee a house in 3 days that costs 15 million dollars? Anyways back to the purpose of this blog. She said that she likes instant gratification, hence the house in 3 days.

At first I was annoyed that she would do that. I can only imagine how her realtor was feeling. But then I got thinking about it, and if I was Kimora I would want the same thing. If I had 15 million dollars to spend on a house, I would want it as soon as possible. Then I got thinking about it more and more. I eventually came to the conclusion that I always need instant gratification, which explains so much of my life. Let me give you a few examples.

One. My credit card debt. All of my debt is from buy things that I couldn't afford at the time so I put it on my credit cards. Instant gratification. Instead of waiting until I saved enough money to buy whatever I wanted, I just put it on the credit card. I didn't care what the consequences were at the time. Now I do.

Two. My past experiences with men. I didn't take the time to think about what I was doing or who I was with. Instant gratification. Instead of sitting down for even 5 minutes to think about what I was doing or what type of guy I was with, I went and did whatever I did with them. I didn't care. I just wanted that instant gratification of being with them. Now I care.

Three. Working out. I don't work out. Why? Because it doesn't give me that instant gratification I want. I want to work out and see the results of it within hours. Clearly that's going to happen.

Four. Food. Fast food gives me instant gratification. Fast food is also very bad for you. Instead of waiting 30 minutes so I can cook something healthy, usually I'll just go to the nearest drive-in and receive my meal of instant gratification. By doing this I feel and see the instant results.

Five. Jobs. Whenever I apply for jobs I always feel like I should be hired with days, sometimes hours of applying. If I don't hear anything I get frustrated and don't care. Also, when I am offered a job I usually don't think about it, I just take it. Even if the job isn't right for me. I have taken some jobs that if I had thought about, I wouldn't have had to experience them..which would be a good thing. I want that instant gratification of having a job and not having to work for it.

Now. Since I have recently realized this I have decided that I am going to start to delay my gratification. I have cut up my credit cards, except for one in case of emergencies..and I am not going to count a cute pair of shoes as an emergency anymore. Thankfully I am with Daren. If I hadn't started dating Daren, then who knows where I would be..probably with some sort of disease. I am going to start working out more, even though I don't see that instant result. I have to tell myself the results will come with time. I am going to start cooking more often. Next time I need a new job or am in the job market I'm going to think about the job and really ponder if it is right for me.

The moral of this blog. Delay gratification. It must and will be done.

HOCKEY GAME!

SO! On Saturday Daren and I, along with Lacey and Jody, went to the Utah State hockey game. I was awfully excited for the game, for a few reasons. One, I love hockey. Two, they were playing BYU. Whenever USU plays BYU it always turns into a brawl. Three, I haven't been to a game all season. Anywho, we get there and go to the section where we usually sit in. Some guy, who I will refer to as Jackhole, asked us if we were Utah State fans, like we couldn't sit there if we weren't. Naturally I said yes. Then a light bulb went off in Daren's head and thought wait a minute, what if I'm not a Utah State fan? So he asked Jackhole the same question. It was really funny because Jackhole got all tongue tied and eventually got out that if we were BYU fans we had to sit on the other side. Which! In all my years going to hockey games has never been a rule at the ice arena. Who did he think he was? A worker? I think not.

Unfortunately Jackhole was sitting in the row in front of us. After about 5 minutes of being there I knew that he would be annoying so I made everyone move one section over, thinking it would save some people from dying or going to jail. Finally the game started, I was stoked. Well, that emotion died quickly. Jackhole decided it would be cool to stand up the ENTIRE game even though his seat was in the FRONT ROW!! What he couldn't see over the all the air in front of him? He was blocked the entire half of the other side of the rink. We couldn't see anything! I didn't want to stand up because then more people would have had to suffer. The more the game went on, the more hostile I got. I wanted to talk by him and elbow him in the stomach!

There was one point in the game where some young kids walked down and stood by the glass. Jackhole took it upon himself to yell, not ask, yell at the kids and told them not to stand so close to the glass. Meanwhile he was standing just as close! Seriously, he didn't work there, he was just a fan. Who does he think he is?!

The game went on. I got so hostile that I started cheering for BYU. I'm sorry everyone else had to suffer because of some Jackhole. Eventually his "dad", who I will refer to as Jackhead, decided that he should stand up too. Great, just great. Anyways, to keep myself entertained while the puck was at the end of the rink where I couldn't see, I turned my attention to the young kids in front of us. (Side note: Jackhole and Jackhead were consistently starring at them.) They consisted of 4 girls and about 7 boys, they were strangers to each other. Through out the night we could hear these guys, who were very immature, plotting how they were going to hit on these girls. It included rotating seats several times to see who could get enough courage to actually talk to them. It got so humorous that I eventually told the girls what they were doing, we all laughed. Needless to say, both parties went home with the same people they came with. Better luck next time boys.

Back to the game. Regulation ended in a tie, 2-2. Overtime it is. At this point everyone just decided to stand up. Utah State won in overtime with literally 0.8 seconds left in overtime. It was awesome! I sure do love hockey and I miss going to games. Even in the last year, hockey games have changed. The team is practically a new team, with a few exceptions. And at the beginning of the game they played some weird music. I felt like I was at the Olympics. It was an entertaining evening, despite Jackhole and Jackhead.

P.S. I didn't elbow anyone....and nobody died or ended up in jail. Too bad.

halloween weekend!

This weekend has definately been an eventful weekend, full of holiday bliss. Friday night we carved pumpkins for Pumpkin Party on Saturday. Last year when choosing a pumpkin I chose the biggest pumpkin I could find. Go big or go home, right? Anywho. You should all be familiar with my attention span, or lack there of. Last year I got about 3 minutes into scooping out the guts of the pumpkin when I got bored. This left Daren to finish the pumpkin. Since this experience he has learned this lesson several times so this year he told me I had to get a smaller one. I was sad but knew it was for the better. I am happy to report I scooped and carved the entire pumpkin this year. I only had Daren help me make it look perfect.

I am hard at work here...as you can see...

This is the final project.


This is a better shot. Mine is the bottom one. It's a bat. As you can see, it's much smaller than Lacey's..


Then on Saturday we went to Daren's family Halloween/Pumpkin party. There was delicious food, games, and a pinata for the little ones. We even blew up the rotten pumpkins in the garden. Good times all around.


This is Susi and I with our vampire teeth that tasted like gasoline...


Little Luiz showing off his big ninja muscles..he absoulutely adores Daren, it's so cute.


So every year his family has a candy corn spitting contest to see who can spit their candy corn the furthest. Small town fun I know, but it was so amusing. AND! I am happy to report my amazing soon to be husband won in the men's division and over all. WHICH MEANS!! Since I am apart of him, I win too! And I love to win!!

I love this picture. This is Angie, Daren's sister, and her son, Luiz. They are both ideal.

Now I am going to take a nap. The end.

what's the deal?

As of late when I come home from a long day playing with children and creating fantastic art projects, I really don't feel like doing much of anything....except putting on some jazzy tunes and trying on all of my clothes. I find that it is very relaxing. I usually don't take off any of the clothes I wore to work, I just start to layer. I usually end up looking something like this....but I'm a girl and this is a boy.




I'm not really sure what my deal is but I'm not complaining. It's a good time. I would definitely recommend it. Although you must make sure you have enough ambition to clean the clothes up or else your room will look like mine...a complete disaster.





eh.

just a few things..

hi friends. just a few things to share.

one. i got a new job. i'm an assistant speech pathologist for Logan City School District. I work at a pre school down on the island...most of you probably don't know where that is. It's just a part of Logan. Anywho, its a pre school for kids who have speech problems. I basically do arts and crafts with them all day. It great. Yesterday I came home with marker all over me and today it was glitter. So far its really fun. I love it.



two. my little brother, shane went on his first date last weekend. he went to Cottonwood's homecoming. he's looked so cute...at least from what i can tell in the pictures. don't you agree? i can't believe he is dating. i still picture him as a little 13 year old boy. as my dad calls him, his 12 year old crown colony son.



three. daren wants to me take a drivers ed class again. apparently i hit a lot of pot holes and thats bad for your car...



four. i just finished a new craft project last night. it is so cute. you can't really tell what it is from the picture. its a book and on one side is the proclamation and the other is this magical quote, a picture of the Logan temple, and a picture of daren and i. you paint it to make it look old and you glue all the pages shut so all you can look at is those two pages.





five. i really love to read everyones blogs. it makes me so happy to hear updates and what is happening..especially since i live in logan and can't be near.

i think that is all. life is good. woot.

i'm special....

so clearly anyone that knows me, knows how special i can be at times. right? right. so the past 24 hours have been a special one.

first. yesterday morning i was pulling into my garage and for some reason my car felt like the wall was lonely. now there are several scratches on the side of my car. no worries about the damage to the garage though. my roommate already hit the same side of it. the new damage just kind of blends in with the previous damage. luckily i'm married into the right family. darens brother can fix. i just can't take my car home until its fixed.

second. i just went to empty my garbage can into the big dumpster outside of my house. no big deal right. i'm in, i'm out. well i was wrong. my neighbor started talking to me about some plate of ours that he had. in the midst of trying to figure what in the sam he was talking about, i lost focus. needless to say, my garbage can is now at the bottom of the our dumpster...and i mean the very bottom. the garbage people must have just barely emptied it because my garbage...and can are the only things in there. i'm not sure how i'm going to retrive it. it stinks.

the end.

my in-laws...

so daren and i both decided that we have both been blessed with amazing in-laws. seriously, i love darens parents so much. anywho, sunday we took family pictures and now you can all see what a good looking family i will so belong to.


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p.s.

I love the movie Beaches. It makes me so emotiomal. If anyone would like to borrow it, my loving boyfriend just bought me the special edition version. I haven't quite figured out what makes it the "special edition" but it is still fantastic. The end.

I'd like to welcome myself to the blog business....

Welcome to the Blog Business. It will be a good time for everyone involved...hopefully....